I often have this feeling people just see the colorful side of me. How can they miss the rest of me?But sometimes there is this crazy and numbing pain. It is very strange because I can’t seem to get rid of it in my life.
In the beginning I hardly know it’s there, but it grows on me, numbing my sense, turning me angry, sometimes furies and explosive. And no matter how hard I fight it…. seconds later it leaves me with the remains of my almost empty sad and lifeless body.
On numerous moments in my life I have dealt with these periods of dark emotion. So far I have always managed to conquer these periods alone.
But they confuse me, fear me and make me want to run away. If only I had the energy at those moments.
Model : Dennis Stellinga